Wednesday, September 9, 2015

When I Lie in Bed at Night PT 3

Part Three
Alana sat on the couch biting her nails. She stared at a picture of her younger siblings, her mother and herself. “Why am I the only one?” she wondered, staring intensely at the picture. That question had plagued Alana her entire life. Her siblings all looked so much alike. They looked just like her mother but she didn't. It was no secret. She knew that she had a different father, but why was she the only one? Her siblings knew who their dad was. Why was she the fatherless child? Every family function or gathering, she would be the one to be stared at and whispered about. Her siblings would tease her and say that they weren't really related, or that she was only their”half sister,” never whole. 
     Growing up in her home was hard, not as hard as it was for some kids but still there were times when she just couldn't take being the unwanted one. There were so many times that she wanted to run away and she did. However, her mother or the cops would haul her back home and once again she would be in her prison. The guards were her siblings and the warden was her mother. 
     “This isn't forever.” Alana would tell herself. One day she would be out of Georgia and be happy. She even thought of looking up her dad. Maybe he wasn't as bad as everyone had told her. From what she heard, he was a criminal that didn't want kids and had no problem with not being in her life. “You're not worth being around.” her brother once cruelly told her. Twenty years is too long to not know if that was true.
      The front door of their manufactured home creaked loudly as her mother walked in complaining, as usual, about the people on her job and how busy the supper market was. Alana rolled her eyes. She loved her mother, but sometimes the sound of her voice was like a sharp blade stabbing into her ears. She remembered sometimes praying to God that she would either go deaf or her mother would lose her voice.
     “You know it wouldn't kill you to get off your butt and help me with the groceries. You sister is helping!” Alana's mother shouted as she walked towards the kitchen. 
     Alana's little sister, the sixteen year old brat, took advantage of every time her mother's back was turned and would flip off her older sister. Alana always had her own middle finger ready first.
    “Half sister.” Alana said under her breath. 
    It was funny to her that she could only put down her siblings when they didn't hear her, however, they would sometimes scream at the top of their lungs about how much of an outsider she was. The most she could do to their face's was give them dirty looks.
 (To Be Continued)

 
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