I have been dreading writing about this encounter. The past few months have been absolutely horrible for my family. We experienced two deaths in June and July, only weeks apart. A few weeks ago, we lost another loved one very unexpectedly. Obviously these past few months have been horrible, but my family and myself are pushing through and holding on to our faith in Christ.
However, getting past these last few months have been kind of hard for me.
One of the loved ones we lost was my dog Pugg. If your not an animal lover, you may think, "Its just a dog. Get another one." Considering the fact that Pugg one of the best friends I had ever had and one of the only other living souls on this earth that loved me no matter what, "just getting another dog," is not that easy for me. I had him for 15 years. He was with me when I was sick, when my mom was sick, and kept us smiling through almost everything. He bugged the hell out of me sometimes, but I miss him so much it literally hurts.
The same goes for my Grandma. She passed away a few weeks before Pugg. I have so many memories of her that I want so badly to relive. I think of the three deaths we faced, her's hit me the hardest. I feel like I failed her, my mother and the rest of my family that was able to be with her. During her last moments, I wasn't able to be with her. I just couldn't bear to see her go. I never imagined her leaving us.
Since then, I smell her. It's weird that I not only remember how she and her house smelled when I was little, but that I also still smell it today. I've even smelled my Grandpa and he passed away about a decade before my Grandma. I've heard her talking and I dream about her constantly. There's not a day that goes by that I don't see or hear Pugg barking. Just a few weeks ago I swear I saw him run into my room like he always did, wanting to go outside.
My cousin, my Grandma and Pugg, I will miss them forever and I'll love them even more. I just wish I could see them again. I know I will again one day in paradise, but for now I just have to wait. Anyway, I know this isn't a scary ghost encounter, but it's something I wanted to share. I know my loved ones are still around me. I feel them everyday and I am so grateful that God is allowing me to do so.
However, getting past these last few months have been kind of hard for me.
One of the loved ones we lost was my dog Pugg. If your not an animal lover, you may think, "Its just a dog. Get another one." Considering the fact that Pugg one of the best friends I had ever had and one of the only other living souls on this earth that loved me no matter what, "just getting another dog," is not that easy for me. I had him for 15 years. He was with me when I was sick, when my mom was sick, and kept us smiling through almost everything. He bugged the hell out of me sometimes, but I miss him so much it literally hurts.
The same goes for my Grandma. She passed away a few weeks before Pugg. I have so many memories of her that I want so badly to relive. I think of the three deaths we faced, her's hit me the hardest. I feel like I failed her, my mother and the rest of my family that was able to be with her. During her last moments, I wasn't able to be with her. I just couldn't bear to see her go. I never imagined her leaving us.
Since then, I smell her. It's weird that I not only remember how she and her house smelled when I was little, but that I also still smell it today. I've even smelled my Grandpa and he passed away about a decade before my Grandma. I've heard her talking and I dream about her constantly. There's not a day that goes by that I don't see or hear Pugg barking. Just a few weeks ago I swear I saw him run into my room like he always did, wanting to go outside.
My cousin, my Grandma and Pugg, I will miss them forever and I'll love them even more. I just wish I could see them again. I know I will again one day in paradise, but for now I just have to wait. Anyway, I know this isn't a scary ghost encounter, but it's something I wanted to share. I know my loved ones are still around me. I feel them everyday and I am so grateful that God is allowing me to do so.
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